Another new start

Today marks the day of a new begining to my life again. I'm another year older, hopefully wiser.

I only had half a day of school. With school located in the city now, I head off to dome and spend the rest of my day there. My brother joined me shortly after I found a sit. We had lunch, did some work together, had dinner, then came back. We didn't talked much since we were either eating, drinking, working or on the internet. But the presence of him with me made my day. Makes me feel like we spent real quality time together. He is not a big fan of studying in a cafe, yet, he still spent the time there because he knows I like it. If only we didn't have to leave the cafe and if only the night didn't have to end. We return to the hostel to only be in our own rooms, doing our own things. It suddenly makes me miss the type of time we just had, as if it was a long time ago, as if I would never be able to spent such time with you again.

You know what brother? You are the very reason why I never got into a relationship with anyone. You are the very reason why I pick and choose the people I hang out with and call friends. You've shown me what a real relationship is like, what it feels like, what it can and should be like. You've shown me what friends are like. You've shown me how to be a real friend to others and not expect things in return. Most importantly, you've set the standard for me to protect me from being hurt. What do I do without you.

No matter how many times I wished today never end, it always eventually do. It's now time to go back to my books and focus on my exams.

love,
kathleen